Got a DD today! Just barely noticed it too! I guess that's what college does to you P:

Busy with school. It's a love/hate relationship.
It's fun. I love what I'm doing. It's just that I feel constantly stressed by the large volume of work expected from us.

Well, cheers! (:

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1) Are you currently in a serious relationship?

2) What was your dream growing up?

3) What talent do you wish you had?

4) If I bought you a drink what would it be?

5) Favorite vegetable?

6) What was the last book you read?

7) What zodiac sign are you?

8) Any Tattoos and/or Piercings? Explain where.

9) Worst Habit?

10) If you saw me walking down the street would you offer me a ride?

11) What is your favorite sport?

12) Do you have a Negative or Optimistic attitude?

13) What would you do if you were stuck in an elevator with me?

14) Worst thing to ever happen to you?

15) Tell me one weird fact about you.

16) Do you have any pets?

17) What if I showed up at your house unexpectedly?

18) What was your first impression of me? (hmmm...careful!)

19) Do you think clowns are cute or scary?

20) If you could change one thing about how you look, what would it be?

21) Would you be my crime partner or my conscience?

22) What color eyes do you have?

23) Ever been arrested?

24) Bottle or can soda?

25) If you won $10,000 today, what would you do with it?

27) What's your favorite place to hang at?

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32) In one word, how would you describe yourself?

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35) Do you believe in God?

36) Will you repost this so I can fill it out and do the same for you?

Ugh. Applying to colleges is hard.

They never have all the info in the same spot.

I completed my RISD application. I still need to finish a statement of purpose (which I will also use for Tyler) and their three specific pieces. (oh gawd)

My Penn State Application is almost there. I need an essay for them too.

Tyler Application is also almost completed.

My portfolio is pretty much complete. I have more than enough pieces, and stuff at school I need to bring home to use. I only need to finish up one uncompleted piece. My uncle gave me his kick ass camera to borrow, so I suppose sometime later this month my dad and I will get some slide film and take pictures of them.

Thank god Art School App deadlines are later than other colleges.

I'm still worried though. What if Art School isn't right for me? Like, what if I went to school for another career, like something in Criminology, Law, or Forensics, since I'm interested in those too? Bahhh. I don't like thisss.

Ahhh, last night was so amazing! I don't think I've ever had so much fun at a dance. I need to write this down and get it out of my head.

Ok so a few days after I met Ed he asked me if he could be my date to Homecoming. Wewtness, yeah? This was like...a week and a half ago? We talked so much since we met and have hung out a lot too. Yes, Carrie is very happy, haha. I don't even think that I can express in words how amazzing this is. I have really liked other guys in the past, and I know I had strong feelings for them. But the feelings I have for Ed are so incredibly strong already because there is so much there so quickly. I've never felt quite like this before. Apparently it's the same for him too :).

Anyway, I don't feel like writing down things that happened before last night.

So we were at my friends house getting ready when Ed finally shows up, and he had a little bouquet of flowers for me! They're so pretty, I have the, in a vase in my room. He was talking about how annoyed he was that his parents insisted to come and take pictures earlier in the day, and it really showed. As soon as they left he got so much happier. I don't think he really likes his mom too much. She seemed nice, but definetly awkward.

Ed and I are definetly the rocker types, so of course the music + dancing going on at homecoming was not exactly to our liking. We just kind of stood there for a while talking, bored out of our minds, when Ed was pretty much like, "Hey, let's just go dance and have fun." So we pulled away from my group of friends into the front of the dance floor and just started rocking out, haha. It didn't matter that the music sucked, we just went out and let ourselves just have fun. Ed had the sickest dance moves too, haha. There were a ton of people in there and before you knew it, we were drenched in sweat from dancing so hard. But we didn't care. Eventually Ed started motioning for me to grab his hands and we did some kind of weird dances that composed of a lot of jumping and spinning. We even did this weird High-Five thing, haha. He just made the night so amazingly fun. I seriously never dance at these things and I was going all night long.

Eventually a slow song came on, and we went to slow dance but realized neither of us knew how to do it. We kind of watched people and tried to mimic what they were doing, and eventually just ended up with his arms around my waist and my arms around his neck.
Then we started a mini mosh pit, haha. Another slow dance came on, and we decided after a little while that we should just go do our own thing since we didn't know how to slow dance, and just grabbed hands and spun around in circles, like how you see people do in flower fields, haha.

I was pretty much away from my friends the entire night. I spent most of my time there dancing and hanging out with Ed. I guess you could say that this was our first real date, Iunno. We ended up going back and forth between the dance floor and the tables where there were drinks since Ed was exhausted from dancing so much. He took my hand one time so we wouldn't get separated in the monstrous crowd, haha. By the end of the night, both of us were like ready to pass out. We were exhausted from all the dancing and pretty dehydrated. We pretty much put our all into dancing. That didn't matter too much since we were having so much fun though.

So we finally get back to Heathers house where us and a bunch of friends were spending the night. We talked about the stupidest things with each other too, like Candy Land and how Lord Licorice is a pervert, and his Thomas the Tank engine blanket and all these episodes and characters he remembers. It was funny watching him trying to remember everyones names, haha. He tried to pretend to no avail. Then Heather's mom had to go and embarass me... "You've got yourself a good girl-friend here Ed, we've known Carrie since she was little!" -she goes on and on while I go 'ahhhh stoppit!'- We're not technically in a relationship yet though. We're both pretty reserved people so of course it's going to come much slower, but there's still something special there.

Eventually we end up just staying on this one long couch. We were allowed to claim it since it's the longest couch and we're both tall (I'm 6 foot and he's 6 foot 5). After a while Ed just goes, "Ahhh I hurt. Could you give me a massage?" And of course he was all achey, I was too, and he was dancing like mad way more than I was. So yeah, of course I said I would, and I massaged his back. He was so grateful, haha, it's was hilarious. He was just like "Ahhh omg that feels so good. UUGHHNNN!" and people who had no idea what was going were like WTF?! Haha it was so awesome.

Finally after much stupidity from everyone, we go to bed at like 3am. Ed and I both slept on the couch longways. No cuddling though, since we're both kind like...reserved, like I said earlier. We both wrapped up in our own blankets and just snuggled next to each other though. He ended up waking me up like a million times during the night though. He kept rolling over and would up smacking me in the head with his elbow, haha. Sometime in the earlier morning we were both just kinda half asleep laying there, and let out a long 'I'm tired' sigh at the same time. Then we both just keep doing it for the hell of it and started cracking up, which I'm sure woke a few people, haha.

Thenn a while later everyone just started waking up so we sat on the couch too tired to do anything, and then his mom called to pick him up. So I walked Ed outside and he left and I got a nice big hug :).

And yeah, that was my amazing night, haha. Feels much better to have it written down now.

And yeahhhhh, I <3 Ed. And I am so dead tired, haha.
And that's all I got.

Although, apparently I was being a little uptight... stupid nervousness. I didn't even realize that.

So last night was really good.

Really really good.

So I went to see Resident Evil Extinction with Kate, Mike, and their friend Ed who I wanted to meet for a while. Supposedly Kate's mom said a while ago that he'd be like perfect for me (why she was comparing guys for me, I don't know...) and Kate and Mike have said that he's a really good guy.

We had an awesome time at the movies. He and I were both wearing Converse! Haha, how awesome is that? He's also ACTUALLY taller than me, which is actually kind of rare. Most guys I know are shorter than me, even if just by a little. Once I got back home, Ed and I talked online from 10pm to 2:40 am.

I think we really hit it off. I really like him :). We talked for the longest time about things we both liked and music and all the good stuff. We have a lot in common. He made me laugh a lot too. Like seriously laugh at some of the stuff we were saying.

Then he started asking questions about relationships and such. We talked for a while about how it's sad how people date around based on looks alone, and that personality is the most important thing. And then he talked about how something one of his friends said really hit home for him about relationships and that he wants a serious one, that he stopped dating around for the sake of dating a few years ago.

... Yeah, needless to say, I'm hoping for the best here, haha. I think it would really work out, we both have so much in common and share some of the same values and thoughts.

So yeah.
I'm waiting for when he comes back online so we can chat some more.
Please please something work outtttt. I was loosing hope for a while, but this looks like it could turn everything around.

It also looks like I'm going to be hired by Payless. Bob is going to call me Monday to say for sure :).

I can never seem to get things down on paper as well as I can type them up, sometimes. I think it's just because it's much easier to revise and edit my thoughts here.

Have you ever thought about what people would say about you at your funeral? (don't take this as anything 'emo' or depressing or anything, it's not meant that way.)

Bahhh.

So much going on.
Preparing for college and all.
I needs a good portfolio.
And I can never seem to whip out anything good at home, only in class.
I just wasted like 2 hours making crap. In attempt to make something cool. Yeah.

Anyway.
I think I'm going to apply to PSU main campus. And RISD. Which I need to call in to say I'm going to the open house Sat. I don't feel like talking to them.

I need a real job.
I need more time in the dayyyy.
And I need inspiration. And motivation.
And I have too many thoughts in my head to think clearly right nowww.

Well, I guess it feels good to finally have that off my chest.
And I got the answer I completely expected.

I suppose now is the time to go mope around in self pity whilst I am by myself, and wonder what is the problem with me that has made it so I have never NOT been single.

...

On a happier note, I made an earring out of a pair today, and it's pretty damn cool. Not gonna say what it is until I am finished. But lets just say that this one alone took me...3 hours or so.

Holy fuks man, I got a Daily Deviation today :D

http://www.deviantart.com/deviation/61625582/